I am really trying to Start With A Beginners Mind. I have a hard time because I continue to revert back to my old ways. I get very frustrated with myself and can see that my H is also frustrated. I'm sure he's thinking, I'll never change. An example, my dad died this last week My H and he were very close. I know that my H is hurting, he is feeling bad because he did not go to seee my dad in the hosp., so I try to comfort him by saying that he can make it up to my dad in other ways (meaning we can get back together) after saying that I knew that I should not have. But what he needed was for me to just llisten. I would liked to have hugged him, but I am afraid because he will think I'm chasing. I want to go back to when we just met. and start over, but how do you do that when you the history? I could see that my H was thinking, but what about? He said he feels guuilty by breaking up the families so was he just feeling more guilt, or was he thinking that maybe we could work things out? I don't dare ask. Julie
