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....you repeatedly slept with your friend's husband


Twice - May as well of been 1000x I know.

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Can you not be happy that he may be getting happy now? Don't take that wrong...but if you love him, you should be at least a bit happy for him and stop being so focused on how it makes YOU feel.


Absolutely no way I can be happy for him. i might be the most selfish person in the whole world but I want my family in tact. I do not want him to be happy without me. i want him miserable.

Yes I understand the need for C, and that is for sefish reasons to. I need to get back with the living and be happy. Perhaps once I am happy I will be able to be happy for him.