Thanks for the support, I just received a bomb I have to go to a wedding this weekend and things have been good. We have been getting along, I was just at my mothers out of town to see her in the hospital (she is having a hip replaced and is doing well, I get home to check my e-mail and found her e-mail open. I broke one of my rules not to spy, but I couldn't resist for some reason. I checked the sent messages and found one to her older friend she is 32 he is 54. I have been suspecting and affair over the summer and just got confirmation. The e-mail contained romantic and sexual stuff and I wish I didn't read it now.
I was hoping to have a good time at the wedding and now knowing that I don't know. I guess I will go for me and not hoping anymore for her. I feel angry because she is being upbeat and we have been gettting along great, all the time she is lying to me saying she isn't with anyone. In her own mind she believes we are already separated, but I haven't had a chance because she has been getting closer to him all summer. I feel like a confrontation right now but that wouldn't be fair to her sister as she is getting married and I dont't want to ruin that. My W is the maid of honor and is giving a speech about commitment( what a joke)!
How can she be so nice to me and be sleeping with this other guy. She wants to stay living in the same house with me so she can save up money. She is spending her money and is now stresses because she doesn't have any. Now I am going to make sure I don't help her finacially and I feel betrayed and am not sure if I can continue.I want to confront the OM too but I know at this stage it is not helpful (he must have the morals of a fly) His wife of 32 years died a year and a half ago I am sure she would be proud!!!
I needed to vent
Jeff
ME 44 W 32 M 5 T 6
no kids
June 08 I don't want to be married it's not you it's me
