Update: Talking more every night.....up late....both of us are tired because we stay up talking all night. Feels really good. Smiling more at each other.
Last night I noticed H carrying his cell phone around. Super huge "mind play" on me. I kept thinking about it. I remember doing that. Made me start thinking about other things that H has been doing and questioning them. So, right before bed, I asked him if he needs to tell me something. I told him we could get through anything and if he is talking to someone else or anything that he could tell me. He said absolutely not and reassured me over and over. He said there is nothing that is weighing on his mind about the past and he just wants to move us into the future. These are the things the cheaters deal with eventually.....realizing that it could be done to us now. My husband is not the kind of guy to be able to do such a thing....yet, neither was I.
