Sara, there is no retrouvaille training in Greece and if we took it anywhere else, although he does speak English, I think he would have problems with the language.
As far the decision made years ago, yes you are right. Only he broke his promise to me and right now I dont feel anymore the "obligation" to stand for the M and give it my best if he doesnt do his part of the work.
Forrest, you are right about my intuition. It says "go for it" cause there is no other way to know for sure. I did get some glances of the old man I used to love so much. And it did make a difference as far as my night sleep (cant sleep well anymore).
Bill, you are right. I think my answer to all of your questions is no, nope, not yet, not specifically, not really. He didnt even answer to the mail where I asked him if he loves me and feels he doesnt/cant live without me.
I did tell him and wrote to him what I want. I did tell him that I feel I deserve more than what he used to give me, I did tell him work is an obstacle that plays a big role in our R and what became of it over the years. I did tell him I want to be his priority, his wife, friend, lover, his treat/gift using Bbj's words. I was very clear about all this. He said I have every right to ask for that and that maybe I should reconsider how I want all that expressed because he feels no matter what he will do, will not seem enough.
I got the same advice. Not to settle. I told you. To be honest, I think that is hard. Given this a try with HIM, it is settling in a way already. Considering the age of my kids I am afraid I will compromise for less than what I would wish for aiming to become reasonably happy and them to become really happy. When it comes to reality and everyday life I am afraid I need to keep my feet on the ground.
Forrest and Sara are right, Gypsy and Ali too saying you have to try to see if it will work. Maybe he will open up more and do more. The reason I am stalling this is that sooner or later, to see if it works, he would have to move in. And when that happens, it will not be easy to separate again and have the kids go through the whole break up sitch again. Does that make sense or am I crazy? K
