I've been off this week... so busy and not much time to post or read any...
This week I'm not doing any 180's... I really don't care... i'm so empty inside and really really do not like my H right now. I had a big R talk yesterday.... he once again talked to my D on Wednesday night for a minute and said let me call you right back and we never heard from him again. I text him 2 hrs later and still never heard from him. That is what started the R and kids talk on Thursday. He really feels he is doing a fine job. Then I brought up the call and he had nothing to say... I think he just forgot to call our D. He is hanging with a 25yr old and that life is so opposite of what a family life is... I think that is what makes this harder for us and him... and what attracts him to her.. two different lifestyles.
He is coming over tonight for trick or treating and he said he needs to leave around 9pm.... found out he has a party to go to with OW.... AHHHH ... we had apartment and R talk yesterday... he signed his apartment lease, a one bedroom. I think I'm going to suggest we share the apartment with him so when it is his weekend to have the girls or his day/night I'll stay there and he'll stay at the house... we'll see what he says... with us having a 6 month old it is hard. He is here now at the house and we are suppose to talk later... we are going to try to figure out visitations schedule etc... ugh!!!!!!!!
I need to start playing the part again... fake it until you make it right. I just really feel at peace that God is going to take care of this and H... I just think it will take some time and it won't happen overnight... it will be a long road if he ever has a change of heart...
I do need to mark down the positive steps he has made... he doesn't seem in the "fog" although a vet and success stated on my thread her H was the same way and very firm that they were divorcing and they are together today.... it can happen I guess.
more later hopfully - hang in there ladies
Me: 38/H:40 M:7yrs TG: 10yrs 2Girls: 4yr & 7 month old Bomb 8/22/08 OW/EA/PA 8/23/08 with 25yr old Moved out 9/22/08
