I was having too much fun to update. Sorry ladies. Hehe.
He came over in the morning and was here till very late last night (technically this morning. . .)
Most of the day was very good. ML, ILY, future talk, good R talk, etc.
There were a few bumps in the road. At lunch we kinda went back and forth a little about what city to live in. My hubby is still pushing for me to move to the city he lives in now which is about an hour away from where I am now. I do not want to move there. I did when we first got married and it was a disaster because I was homesick, didn't have a job, didn't know my way around, etc. I do not even like the city itself, it's just not a nice place to live. I think he is being really selfish about this because there really is no good reason to move there other than his friends are there. Who cares! I just feel like if he can't give up living in the same city as his friends then maybe this isn't going to work. My job is here, our church is here, there are more job opportunities here. It makes no sense to move. He was arguing that cost of living is cheaper there which is true but I don't see that as a valid reason to move. In the end I told him that if he found a job there that he loved and could not do anywhere else then I would move but other than that I am staying here.
I don't know. It wasn't a fight but it was tense. I think we handled it well seeing as how we kept it under control tone wise and did not let it spin out of control, stayed on topic, etc. But just a rought conversation. I still don't feel good about it because I do not want him putting his effort into finding a job there just so I have to hold up my side of the deal. Ugh. An hour is not that far away but at the same time it is. I just don't move well and I get tired of moving from city to city. Especially thinking future wise and knowing that if he got sent to war I'd be stuck an hour away with no support net of family and friends who could come over at a moments notice when I was feeling sad and depressed about him being gone. That was the whole reason we moved last time so that I could be comfortable while he was gone for boot camp and AIT training last year.
Sorry that is probably waaay more info than you guys needed to know. I guess I need some advice. I want this marriage to work and I am sooo happy that we are piecing and will be moving in soon but I'm not sure I am willing to move for him right now. Is that terrible? I'm feeling pretty confused about it right now.
Towards the end of the night my BFF came over and we all carved pumpkins and mine was not turning out as planned and I got cranky and he was kinda irratated that I was complaining so much and I wanted to stop but between being up all day, PMS, and a stupid pumpkin pattern, I was about to lose it. Lol. Today it doesn't seem so bad but last night I was a mess. Luckily he just helped me fix my pumkpin and it turned out cute and then we watched a movie and he just cuddled me. It was really a 180 for him because normally when I get irritable and cranky he gets mad and lashes out but this time he did it different and I think he might see that it is the better way of dealing with me when I am like that. Lashing out just causes a nasty argument. Maybe he is learning too!
He did say during our R talk yesterday that he does need to change and be nicer and more considerate towards me so that we do not go back to the way we were. I'm happy that he said that.
I know we will be okay and that things will be even better than they were before, probably ever before, and all the bugs will get worked out over the next few months as we find a place and settle down. I guess I am just seeing that there is still a ways to go.
