K, everytime you visit I feel better. Strange... I am trying hard to balance everything. If this was to work, I feel these days are cruicial about the form it will get. I am setting boundaries, you are right.
I cant fix this alone. I dont want to "make it" enough in my mind and wake up a year from now banging my head on the walls for being stupid, for not seeing the truth, for ...settling. If this isnt going to work, I am sure I will know pretty soon. M
Well, if I am the best, I am telling you it sucks to be the best.
