I was once told.. don't worry about whether a decision is perfect; just make one. Once you have momentum it's easier to see which direction to go.
What you're doing is incredible... keeping an open mind but holing to your convictions, setting your boundaries for the relationship you need. I used to call it (in reference to spouse) "getting his peepee whacked." Hmm.. I should have done it more.
I understand the binge eating. I know I'm stuffing emotions down (food, too) as I move forward with things that scare or upset the living daylights out of me.