She came to bed at midnight last night. The good thing about yesterday is that she did spend some time with me and the kids out in the living room and watched a movie for a bit. She does seem a bit cold to me. Not sharing much info, not talking to me as much as she was in the past. I'm kind of wondering what is going on inside her head but I'm being very careful to not ask or change how I am behaving around the house. I'm holding course, not acting at all like I'm hurt, I'm not moping around, when I get home I act as if I'm happy and excited to see them (which I am) and I always try to just be like there is nothing wrong.
Yesterday I contacted an old friend that I grew up with. He and I haven't talked in a long time and he has been going through some hard times as well. So we're going to get together in the upcoming weeks and talk a bit. This is a part of my GAL.
I think that once I talk to my psycologist and decide if I'm going to ask her if she is still going to go to the movie with me or not, I will be sure to go by myself if that is the case.
Since this is the first time I've had to deal with this, I don't know what to expect from her so I don't know if her emotions are frustrations with me that I'm not "slipping back into my old ways" or if it is something else. Either way I'm not going back to who I was. That was a selfish terrible person and I can't see living the rest of my life like that.
Like I said before, today should be interesting. I'm working from home so we'll be around each other most of the day. Will report more later.
