Surrendering to hope

[istherehope]

Hi Sep,

You're right about assuming the tone over text. I need to stop doing that! I should, if anything, assume the other way and act "as-if" he has been missing me, even if he doesn't feel comfortably saying it or showing it.

Problem is that I'm a manager here, so it's sort of weird for me to just show up at things where there will be other employees. Yes, sounds weird but true. So, still waiting to hear back from one friend, but the reason I hadn't set anything up was that I was originally planning to stay at my friend's house tonight while she was out of town, and was going to be happy enough just relaxing there on my own.

I won't go home immediately after work or anything, but it is going to be more of a stretch now, me just hanging around the office late (if I don't hear from my friend first).

Now H may get on IM when he gets home, and/or send an email or something, likely in the next 2 hours or so. If he reaches out, I will play by ear what I do tonight. No matter what I don't want to get home and lie about what I've been doing or anything. If I do just stay late at the office, will probably say that I had to stay and catch up due to going in late this morning while I waited to see if the repairman was coming...

What I would really like from H is a gesture, even a minuscule one, that he wants to spend time with me. I am going to ask for a sign like this, ala Secret...

ITH