I don't recognize her anymore

[faithisbelieving]

Thanks Bill. One of my friends here posted to me elsewhere something that repeats what Jeff223 once discussed with me almost 2 years ago in a phone conversation. That once they make this decision, they cannot turn back. If your W is type A or controlling or could never be wrong, they lose face to finally say "I was wrong and I want to work this out."

Too much analysis, still, on my part.

One of the things I have noted here...on this board..including myself..is the need to evaluate and analyze everything our S's do. We look, watch, think, scratch our heads, etc. It's probably a waste of time in the long run. Eg, as many know, my W converted for me, then, decided to switch back:

• puts on a pave cross I bought her Dec. 06 to show her that I celebrate what she desires in her heart
• puts a large star of David on in April for Passover for one week
• removes it and puts her cross back on
• gets pissed off at me after my honesty with the Law Guardian, removes the white gold pave cross I bought her and puts on a HUGE blue turquoise cross
• this week, the cross I bought her is now back on and she seems nicer to me this week

The first person who says babysteps gets a 2 X 4.

It doesn't make any sense to me but then again....has any of this? Once I stop trying to still figure things out, I know I'll be back on track.

Thanks Bill. Yeah..the Crest Whitestrips.

It amazes me how the WAS, frequently, can latch back onto another person so quickly. Many people are trying to set me up with people. I know I can't..it takes me away from my kids. It takes a special energy that I don't have right now.

My last two weeks were rough:
-FIL placed a levy on my bank account causing the mortgage payment to bounce, affecting my credit (but I think I got the bank to reverse it since I haven't missed a payment in 10 years)
-W photographed me crashed out on the couch with the kids and my nephew across the street after a long day of dancing and partying at a family affair (trust me..it was a sleep over..on the couch..PJ's and all)...and called me a hypocrite in front of the kids (my atty complained that they sleep with her every night and have no routine)
-stole my media card out of my camera..nothing on it but family pix

Everyday, I look at my home. I think of all the trees I planted: the two paw paw trees that are now flowering after 8 years...my rare Ben Franklin tree....the Yellow buttons and magnolia I planted for her. My sister lives across the street and my other sister two blocks away, yet, in all likelihood, I will have to leave at some point and deed it to her.

Men, in the state of NY...are the bad guys. Hey Jeff...I can empathize now with you re: the Great State of Alabamee.

AV8R

My house has a history. Yes...I know it is just a house. It still amazes me at how these people can change so much...enough to cause so much destruction..so much hurt and so much pain..to EVERYONE.

Yes..25..it sounds like a lot of 'negative' typing of late. I think it's just my time to 'cycle'. Except for finances, I am OK.

Thanks for all your support.
FIB