Don't know what to do- Please help

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Thanks Jaks!

I am trying to keep a PMA but yesterday just was not a good day, felt very low, I try not to let H see, but I was just feeling like why am I bothering, why do I keep doing this to myself.
Again I feel like I am in a waiting game, waiting for something else to happen. And it is just getting old!
I wondering if things would just be better for me to be on my own, would the worry be less?
I do love h but in the end is it enough? I have love him through out all of this, and so far it hasn't been enough, because he keeps seeking the ow out.
I know this will pass...