Well I feel really sad and depressed tonight. My D were trying to get hold of their dad tonight. No answer of course. This is normal for him now. He takes no calls or replys at night.
D18 rang his mums ( thats where he is staying ) and she said he was out at a dinner with Wellington rugby. I am gutted. This is the first social event he has attended without me and worse still he never mentioned it. I want to chase him down and shake him. I feel i am losing him. What says he gets comfortable doing things like that without me and what says he meets someone . This is horrible. We seem to grow further and further apart.
I am going to TRY not to say anything to him. Give him space, I don't think he is going to miss me at all. This seems worse by the day. If he gave even the slightest hint that he missed me I would hang on to that but I get nothing.
It is like he is stone cold where I am concerned. I think he no longer loves me.
