Hey Cagzmom, it's still hard, and you're still going. One day you will take your daughter to tour universities up and down the coast. One day you will take vacations with her, see the Alamo, hike the Grand Canyon, go on a Cruise in the Caribbean. One day...
But for now you gotta weather this storm.
You ever think about finding a local support group? For a while I did that - there was a group at church, people going through divorce. We'd get together and talk once a week. It was really helpful.