Peace, so sorry you are feeling unsettled. Try, if you can to be still. Not for your h, for you. Pull back a little. Maybe he should feel that you are moving forward.
If you are not sure what to do today, do nothing. Wait a day or two and see how it looks.
It is hard all this. Even harder to go through for months and months. Take a little time to clear your head. Do something for you.
