Hope4us struggle, part 9 or 10 or whatever

[Hope4us]

Thanks guys. I did ask her if she was ok or if something was bothering her Tuesday night. "No" was all I got. And then a short time later I went to bed and when I went to kiss her goodnight I got a small sigh and then a kiss like you'd get from your grandmother.

I'm not going to change anything. In fact, after I left the job site this afternoon I drove over into Kentucky and picked her up a couple cartons of smokes. They're about $21/carton cheaper than they are in Ohio. I called her on my way to my hotel and told her and she was kind of ok. Definitely different than she was when I talked to her while she was at work. I don't know, maybe she just needed a night to herself. S16 went to his H.S.'s regional volleyball tourney match tonight and won't be home til probably midnight so she's got an evening to herself.

One other thing I thought of (and I know I mentioned this on FB to you TAL) is this refinery I'm at these couple days is the same one that OM transferred to a year ago in August. So maybe she's triggering with me coming down here. I know I've been thinking about something I could do to him with a trigger.....Ok, just kidding.....I'd never use a deadly weapon, the jail sentences are longer than if I use my fists....

And this evening was pretty tough on me. I was driving on the same road that W would have been driving on when she'd go see the a**hole and I was having a pretty hard time with that. Just kept picturing her driving to see him and getting all giddy, bout made me want to puke....

So, again, I'm not going to change anything. I won't get home until late tomorrow night and then Saturday we're going shopping for a new bed and then taking her out to dinner for her birthday. So it should be a fun weekend.

We also are going to Columbus for the Ohio State/Mich game in a few weeks and then Thanksgiving which W is planning on having at our house this year so it will be a fun/busy time.

Thanks for keeping an eye on me. I really appreciate the props.