Thanks y'all. I think I'm going to enjoy it. And a nice break from my life working at a job. Will be less stressful than the rest of my life I think/hope.
Took the kids to the C today. Told the C that I'm worried S14 is depressed. He's been talking badly about himself and focusing on that and just seems a little glum or numb or something (reminds me a little of me last year when I was depressed). She said she's going to keep an eye on him, and I will too of course. I guess it's a tough age, and having a disconnected dad and the D and everything is rough.
I saw the C today also. She's usually really supportive of what I'm doing b/c I'm generally doing good, but she was ragging on me about not being assertive enough about the broken heater situation. Well, H doesn't want to pay the $5000 or more to replace the heater, and he's run up all the credit cards at this point, 3 maxed out cards. She also thinks I should be more assertive with the attorney, and you know how she is. She kind of bosses everyone around, and if I had an issue that really bothered me, I would stand up, but if I don't really care I just do whatever she advises.
I also told her I was peeved that H's L was asking my L about when I would get a job and she said she thought that was a valid question, I guess b/c it has taken me a while. I said well I've applied to about 2 dozen jobs in the past few months, and I think the 9-year gap on my resume probably made people question about hiring me. I know from working in this area you usually get 100 or more applications per job, so a gap in the past 9 years would probably make me think I was questionable too if I was looking at my resume! My point about the L's comment was that I've applied to lots of jobs, all the part-time jobs within 30 miles of my house, done well on the interviews I had, and if people don't hire me I can't really tell him as to what date I'll get a job. I mean I guess she can tell him now I've got a temporary job, but if I hadn't gotten it it could be anywhere from a day as it turned out to a few months more I would think. Duh!
Anyway, just kind of felt it was not that great a session for me. Kind of thinking maybe I won't need it much longer maybe. I feel pretty good right now, despite my C's concerns. Kind of feel like it's not as important to me as when I first went when I would count down the hours and minutes to my next C session. Karen
