Thanks for your response and your advice. I am waiting to reply. NW626 suggested that I try to read whatever response I come up with from H's perspective. That helped a lot, too.
It is so crazy, I feel like I am playing games with the one man I have ever been with with whom I never had to play games. That was one of the reasons I knew he was the right guy, you know? When we were first dating, I never had to wait to call him or vice versa, we talked everyday and we called each other when we felt like it. I always could say anything to him and we had such great communication.
Now that's gone and I have never been so scared. Every step I take I question myself, will this bring me closer to my goal or will it push him further away? The other thing is that I used to know him well enough to answer these questions, now there is so much about his behavior that I do not recognize.
