Yet, I still feel this black cloud over my head.... Because of what happened with Kim.... I know I did everything I could... I made several mistakes... But, I NEVER told her I would not be willing to work on our M....
Yes, this is the mystery to me too. Life is good. Amazing frankly. Great job, great new wife, great R with my son and most of the time great R with my daughters. Healthy, live in a great country, friends, I can laugh, etc.
Yet still I arrive at this sadness. Yet still, God seems a distance off. My last thread was to do with how I did not find a sense of a meaningful relationship and relevance amongst many Church people. I still don't.
I am sure there are anwers out there and I am sure they will arrive. I suppose the purpose of this thread and my Qestions is to be honest about my desire to know... as well as the paradoxical feelings of good and bad.
