Chazz, what you have to do is make the best choices for yourself and try to re-build from the past, it can be done, it will take a lot of work. I always say that its the hard things that define who we are, everybody is great when things are going good, its when things get hard is when we find out what kind of character we have.
I agree with you totally Brave. I have done a ton of rebuilding and choicemaking in a positive direction. I have read many books, taken many courses, seen many doctors, posted here and other places and been to probably 1,000 recovery meetings.
I believe I have moved forward incredibly and have enjoyed growth and insights beyond what I ever imagined.
What I am saying is that somehow in all of this I feel a distance from God and pain and sadness still.
I am not looking for specific answers from anyone... I simply find that by posing honest questions, amazing answers come back through dialogue. Sometimes in the most unexpected way.
