Chazz,
He is there. The only thing I can really think of is that saying, 'God doesn't give you more than you can handle.'
It's hard to understand sometimes and I've questioned it myself. But then I think about it. Thru everything I have been thru, especially the last year, I've had some very dark times. But the lessons I have learned from them are huge. If I had not been thru those times, I wouldn't have these lessons. I would still be making the same mistakes over and over again. I am a stronger person because of them. And that's where that saying makes sense. He has a perfect plan for me. I have no clue what it is. But in order to get there, I have to be a strong person. He knows I am that person, and these experiences have made me realize that myself.
Don't get me wrong, I've said myself, "I'm tired of being strong! I'm tired of the pain. I'm tired of wondering what is next! I'm tired of being strong!"
Then, the dark time passes and it makes more sense when I have a new found strength I thought I didn't have.
Like RMG said, give it to Him and let Him work.
I'm not a very 'religious' person, but I've read the Bible some and one of the verses that has really stuck with me and really made an impact on my life is Matthew 6:34 (NIV)
'Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.'
Julz


Me- 29
X - 30
M - 7.5 years
Final April 2009
S - 2005
D - 2007


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