Surrendering to hope

[istherehope]

So Sep,

If you're still looking at the forums, not sure if I got a sign or not...

Two things are telling me that maybe I should stay at the house, even though I still like the shock value of not staying here, and I think it would impress H. About an hour ago I got an email from our rental agency saying that we needed to do some weeding etc. I forwarded it on to my H, as he has been doing loads of weeding. He wrote a scathing response to our rental agent about all of the work we've been doing. It was unbelievably scathing. I just wrote back and said "well put".

I got home, got online, and he's on IM. I didn't expect to hear anything, but I got "hey, we can weed this weekend." I just wrote back that I'd put on the weed killer, and said "dumba** rental agent", to show that I sympathized. Then he got offline immediately. OK not amazing contact, but something "marriage-like". I think he is really looking for activities for us to do together, rather than sitting in the house. I am fine with this of course.

The second thing is that I emailed my friend about staying there tomorrow. She had just left for the weekend, and I got her out of office response. I texted her, and haven't heard back. I have the keys and "could" just stay there, but I feel a little weird about this in case they have things laying around or something that they wouldn't want guests to see.

So given this combination, I'm thinking that I should stay at the house, but come home very late in the leopard outfit (but not so late that he won't be awake).

Does this now seem reasonable? I can always choose to leave on Monday or something instead...I guess what's pushing me over the edge is staying at someone's house when she doesn't know I'm there. I don't feel good about that.

ITH