Feeling odd and nervous, and I still don't have any inspiration about what I should do tomorrow night. H was online for half the day and didn't reach out to me. He'll be back tomorrow, and I feel it's strange that we haven't talked. The only thing that I know is that he still wants to go to the outlet mall that we were planning to go to, and this only because he brought it up on that call from the Frankfurt airport on Tuesday night. I feel like he is trying to push me away again after the progress that we made, and I'm not sure how to handle it...I hope I am overreacting and that he is just caving it up after the intimacy. I just know how worried he is about giving me "false hope." Every interaction we've had since the weekend has been business-related, and the only thing that seemed a bit out of the ordinary was the call from the airport, where I felt like we were partners again.
It was a real challenge today, but I decided not to reach out. I do have a few legitimate things to email him about, but I refrained. He has a horrendous flight today, where he leaves at 340 AM local time, and arrives back to Dublin at about 1 PM. So, I will see him online tomorrow for sure. This means that if I DO decide to stay away for the night, he will see my note and likely IM me about it throughout the day. If I decide to go home, then I will spend the day wondering whether he actually wants me to be there or not. I REALLY wish that I could get a sign on the right thing to do in this case...
ITH
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
