Thank you all for being patient with me.I understand what you say Sara. I think that is how I kept my love alive for him the 12 years of our relationship (at least during some of them) and 7 of our marriage. I know how that works.
And that is exactly what I am trying to do right now. I focus on the effort he is making and try to bring that loving feeling back to me heart. Yesterday afternoon I had sent him a mail asking him if he loves me. If he knows now that he cant live without me, if he feels I am too preciosu to lose, if he wants ME and not the kids and our family environment. During both our duscussions he never said "I realised I love you" or something along these words. He only said he "never stopped loving me". You may think I am playing with words. But I am not. I need to know that the motive that got him to say he wants to come home is his love for ME. I need to count on his love for me to think we have a chance because I cant count on mine.
He never answered the email or called yesterday at all. Last night I went to bed thinking "This is it- I cant do it, he is too late. I will just tell him so tomorrow". 2 o'clock in the morning I get a TM saying "Maria I am so sorry. I received your email, it was impossible to talk today, we are letting people go at the newspaper and I am still at work, we will talk tomorrow, Good Morning".
