Hi MM, keep stopping by sir. But for all my GALing, I still have those bad days. Weekdays are tough and lonely and yesterday I had a little slide.
Had my boys yesterday tho I hardly see S6 as we went to my sisters and he went to play with his Cousins. Fair enough, but I never really see him but for eating times on the weekdays, but he's happy. Went back to my mums for dineer and S6 was drawing with his nan while I cooked. Just before leaving I said when I get my place I won't have to take you boys home as you'll be able to stay over and S6 said 'I want to stay with you tonight '. I said, we will sort something out soon mate, but we can't tonight now it's to late. Broke my heart tho, every time I see them at the moment, giving them back gets tougher.
So I dropped them home, said my goodbye and STBX was in dressing gown and tights so I said, 'Wearing tights, you cold or something ?', response was 'No, I'm going out !'. I know it will be with another man as she rarely goes out with friends in the week. I could be wrong and I admit that kinda hit me a bit, but I just said see ya later and left. No drama, no action where she was going or anything. Think as I was tired and also upset about giving the boys back, the sitch got to me a bit.
Thankfully I was going round a friends straight after so I went there, chatted and watched TV, then home for an early night. Feeling better again this morning, but certainly having more odd days of how much this is really p1551ng me off. The sitch, the time, but most of all the boys and what they are going through.
