So ya, I borrowed the title from a book by Philip Yancey. It is meaningful to me today.
So what am I talking about? Today I wonder. Where is He? I dont question his existence. I perhaps am saying I dont know where I stand with God today. And I dont understand why God, who I understand to be loving, allows so much pain.
These divorce, betrayal, and broken family issues are some of the most painful things imaginable. Half of literature and song lyrics are about heartbreak and loss. So it is no new thing to mankind. Yet it goes on and on. We will not stop it. Ever.
I want to reconnect with God. He reintroduced Himself to me through 12-step recovery... which he founded through two devout believers.... Bill W and Dr. Bob. He's all over that. But yet I am affraid. I am hurt. But not without hope. It just feels so far off.
I am tired. It has been a long month. Guess that is why I am back here.
