I went and picked up the book tonight and started to read it. When I left I told my wife that I had a few errands to run after we put our girls down to bed for the night. She didn't ask where I was going, when I would be back, nothing.
The one thing that I know I need to do is be patient. The thing is, I'm not patient and I need to learn to be.
At this point I feel like shes really gone and we're separated even though we still live in the same house and we are still sleeping in the same bed.
The biggest thing that bothers me right now is the fact that she spends so much time on this online game where she has lots of friends which many of them are guys. She says she escapes into the game and its like a drug. She doesn't have to think about the pain. She says that if I take that away that I'm taking away her fun and that I would only do it because I don't like it when she is happy. So that makes it really hard for me to tell her that I don't want her to play it anymore. It's not that I don't like her playing it, I think she plays it so much that we don't have any time to make things better - no time to interract with one another. So I'm just letting her play and going about my ways doing my own thing, cleaning the house, taking care of the kids, etc. I've also stopped touching her and telling her that I love her so that she will stop "running". The chase that I was giving her was pushing her farther and farther out the door so I'm told.
I don't know, I'm just talking and getting my feelings out because I can't do it to her - it would just make things worse. She had told me she is SO tired of hearing my talk about it. She says it's exhausting to listen to me. :-(
Anyways, I got my book (The Divorce Remedy) and I'm going to go out to the other room and read it now. I'll post again in the morning on how things went for the rest of this evening. I'll kind of use this thread as my journal for myself. If people read it and can comment, please do. I'd like to hear from people.
