For the Guy with Kids and a WW Diciotto

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Logic doesn't help sometimes!!!

Karen, she is the most ILLOGICAL person I have ever known.

And going into a rebound relationship sounds like me, doesn't it?

The stuff with D11 can be hard but she knows who the messed up parent is. She is "escaping" with her friends when she is with her Mom. They are her support group, just like we are for you. Try not to take it so hard. You know all 3 of them love you. Just stay available and let them know how much you love them back and it will all be good.

I know they really love me. She is a kid and enjoying her new friends. Because her mother moved into town, they are no longer isolated like they used to be, living here in the boonies. It's just that they are all I have right now. I just have to be strong and be happy for them.

We'll set up another movie night soon.

Beej,

I have been trying to be dark. It may not be pitch black, but pretty much, considering the kids. Yesterday, I took those cords and jeans for D7 and left before the wife could get there. I was tempted to pick D7 from the afterschool care, but I thought that I should leave it up to the wife, even though I was desperate to see her. I didn't want to have to see the wife yet.

I talked to my girls this morning again. D11 did not surprise me last night. I told her that I could not find her tshirt that she had me looking for. I hear the wife in the back ground saying we'll just have to get her another one. I tell D11 that I'LL go get it and get it to her today. I also talked to D7 for a while. She has been in a good mood these past couple of mornings.

I go to work first, planning on going to D11's school during my lunch hour. Something came up and I had to go early. Like 45 minutes after I got to work. I had an appointment lined up that I forgot about. On the way back from the school, the wife calls me and leaves a VM. If I was going to get the tshirt or if not, to let her know so she can do it on her lunch hour. She had this long pause, like thinking what to say, then told me to just call her or email her back.

I email her,

"Morning. I just got back from Amanda's school. They wouldn't let me buy it. I had to write a check and they delivered it to her so she could buy it during PE.

Have a good one."

She emailed,

"Thanks you too, have a good one."

I did not call Amanda after school like I usually do. I have not talked to them tonight, yet. See if she calls me.

My friend D called me today, too. I was also heading back to the office after leaving D11's school. She had a banking question about a client at the wifes credit union. She was asking if she could call her, or how she would feel if she called. I told her to just call her. D felt funny but it was important. I gave her the wifes office number. Later after I got back to work, D called me and told me she was going to come visit me later. She comes sometime after lunch and sits with me. We talk for a while about stuff. She told me she talked to the wife. During their conversation, D refered to me saying, "...your husband or ex or roomie or whatever you want to call him." D was just acting dumb.

The wife asks, "Oh, you know?" She says yes, that she had a girlfriend that ran into me and told her that "we weren't making it." She didn't say much after that. Her leaving my office, I tell her we need to have a drink and she says she'll call me. Maybe this weekend.

She won't call.

My assistant manager asked "She looked familiar. Who was that that you couldn't take your eyes off of?"

Also today, I was talking to one of the tellers. She had asked me what my approval authority was. I told her with my devilish smile, that I had "one BILLION dollars". I made the other teller laugh and she said, "I just love that dimple you have when you smile." It just made me smile bigger. I explain to them that THAT particular feature is what captured the heart of my wife.

Way back when. They just gave me the "awwwwwww".



So today, had contact with D. B called me last night and we talked for a while. I had lunch with Y today. Well, I gave her enough money for both of us for her to go pick up lunch for us. I owed her. We had lunch a couple weeks ago and I forgot my wallet(likely story),so she paid for me. We had lunch at work with another co-worker. I had some text exchanges with M, who moved back to Boston with her family. She is doing very well, but her and her 5 month old are getting over a cold. K texted me that she had passed another licensing test. I texted her back a congrats and that I may have to give her congratulatory pats on the rumpus.

And my tellers made me blush.

All that and I still feel the same about her?

Karen, I'M a goob!