Sandy, please don't do this. E-mails like this do NOT help, and you know that.
If you need to, write that out, post it on here. Then hit the "delete" button. You just gave him PERMISSION for his horrible, hurtful behavior, and you're also continuing to express to him that -- no matter WHAT he does -- you'll still be back here waiting for him.
Do you want him to pity you, or be attracted to you again?
