My threads seem to be locking up quicker and quicker these days..that's too bad...especially when it takes so long to be found again by those who have been helping me the most.
So, she is moving out on Saturday...and while it may be for the best...it still tears me apart at times. It's little things, like sitting with my baby and reading to him or playing with him - the kind of stuff I had expected to share with her...but the truth is...even before this started we hardly shared any moments like that as she would shut me out of their time together so completely that I often just felt unwelcome.
I'm going out to a dinner with some TV people tonight...should be nice to be in the company of others - people that know me in a positive light - who, dare I say, even like me...so that's refreshing.
I have a feeling next week is going to be very sad and painful. My S11 will be with me this weekend - though we're going to make sure we come back home on Saturday after she's completely out of the house. We should have a good time together, though, since we won't have her tension and anger to deal with at all - and we'll just be able to hang out like two boys...I will miss having the baby with us though - damn...it...just writing that is making me lose it a bit...okay...I have to hold myself together...going out soon and have to be positive and strong.
