I hate to block it... its his work and we sometimes do correspond that way.
Funny, he responded with :hmmmmm.guess nice is not on the agenda.
I had to send back to him :Babe....
I wasn't asking for you not to be nice . Please understand... My crazy heart sees your name sending emails..and I think..hmmm..he is thinking of ME. But, I know the reality.. your not. I am trying to heal. I am hurting. You dont understand, I know. I dont expect you too..I deserve this pain. I hurt you thru the years...very unintentional just so you know...I hate myself for who I was. I lost the love of my life and my children lost the family unit. Please dont ever question my love..obviously you did..but I really do love you..
I am struggling with how to stop thinking, feeling and being emotional about us.
