it has been a long day for me today, lots of back sliding, tears, hopelessness. I did email H and say I was sorry for the way the talk went, and we clarified a few issues, he said he doesn't want to deal with my sadness because it hurts. I didn't go to school today, and moped around most of the day, not productive at all. I am going to go to soccer tonight, that will help. Kids are now gone for the weekend, that doesn't help, I feel like I get nothing.
I am not sure how to process this, mostly I am avoiding thinking about it.
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
