Yes, we are sleeping in the same bed. When I went to bed last night I told her "Goodnight.." and that was it. For the past near 12 years I've always touched her, hug/kiss and an I love you before I would go to bed. So when I told her "Goodnight.." and nothing else, she replied "Goodnight Sweets..".
She likes to talk to me when I get home. If she has something to talk about she tells me about it and all that stuff. It's just hard for me so hearing what you have to say helps me understand where she really is in here head by her actions. I'm promising myself to not touch her or say ILY right now until she comes around.
I really need to figure out how to GAL. I joined a gym and stuff but other than that, I don't know what else to do. I don't have many friends around where I live. I know on the weekends I can just take my kids places and have fun with them.
I talked to a pastor at a church and he asked me if she would go to a movie with me. I said I didn't think so but I would ask. He said I should take her to the movie "Fire Proof". I told her that the pastor had me ask her and I told her what the movie was about and I was surprised that she said yes. Now that she has said yes, I need to try and get here there to watch it. I'll ask again if she is still willing to see it with me so that I give her the opportunity to back out if she wants to.
We had a good evening last night. We talked a bit and even this morning we talked a bit more about this and that - nothing inparticular. I am planning to do the same thing tonight. I think I might go out in the garage and do some cleaning so that she can get our car in the garage. The rainy season is coming and I don't want my kids to have to go out in the rain to get in the car if they don't have to.
I will order Divorce Remedy just after posting this and start on it right away.
What does she mean by "I'm done". She kept repeating that. What her words said is that she is done with the marriage and she just won't even go back to the way it was before. I told her that I would never put her back there - ever. I never want to be the person that I was in the past. I've realized everything that I have done and I can't live with myself doing the same thing. I simply don't want to live that way anymore.
Any other information you have for me would be greatly appreciated. I'll post here how things go so I can write it out. It helps my mind when I can share with others and they comment. I really appreciate the encouragement. It makes me feel good that I'm doing the right things and that if things don't end up the way I want - I will know that I did everything in my power to change myself for the better and that she is going to miss out on a great person going forward.
