SPM, you and your children are often in my prayers. I have said before on this forum that morals, dignity, compassion matter. Truthfulness and being true to yourself matters. I am glad that that has held true for you, my friend.
I hope that all that you wish for comes to fruition. You deserve it and more!
It would be near impossible for you to have romantic feelings for your wife at this time. Put that stuff on the shelf for now. And remember that you have acted with honor and strength.
