It's Tx Mom.. 2nd thread.. trying to hold on...

[TxMomw/2girls]

imLIN,

Thanks for filling me in on how your H was at times.. I guess anything is really possible... just don't know by the time he realizes it if I will have any love left for him... but one day at a time right.

It is difficult... today I just feel so empty and angry toward him... or is it really so disappointed that it is hard for me to have compassion... I can't believe the man he is and has turned into... I can't hardly even look at him... As I said in my earlier post... I can move past the affair it's the fact that he just up and left and abandoned us.

He came over this morning to take my D to school and it must be nice to walk in, not showing up early to help out with anything (her lunch, getting her dressed, breakfast OH and mind you we have a 6 month old) so I was short and snippy with him has he took his work printer.. I told him I want all his stuff out of this house... I don't want to look at him right now.. of course I should be thankful that he offered to take and pick up my D... count the few efforts he makes right..

He is going to be here for Halloween so I'll have to get rid of my pissy attitude by then and just play nice and drink a lot - HA!! :-) kidding..

I will say I do feel that I have better days now and I am just getting use to doing it all myself with my two babies so my resentment is not high anymore (except today) but it will past in a few hours I'm sure...

pushing through...