H stopped by this morning and on the way out told me he is seeing someone, of course I was upset and we kind of argued, wish I hadn't broken down. I guess another nail in the coffin still hurts, even when you think it won't. I am not surprised on one hand, he has been "looking" for a long time. I guess there was just part of me that thought maybe. I feel like the ugly step sister. that is the part that hurts the most, I feel so unattractive, and like I will be alone forever, which I don't want. I supposed the best thing I could do would be to try and focus on working on myself, but I just feel like it is hopeless. sigh, why does this stuff cut so deep
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
