Pretty normal and healthy stuff, Fish! Often when we're trying to keep our heads above water we push the grieving aside and it surfaces later when we are strong enough to handle it. Don't be surprised one day if you wake up and actually miss your W too! There were lots of good times to remember to, not just the bad. I'm a year into separation and I'm going through much what you are right now. It's called healing, let it happen and keep on keeping on!