All that you can't leave behind... (43)

[gForce]

I know mistrust, fear, residual pain - they are hard to overcome and the desire to overcome them does not easily develop. But I am so happy for you that H seems to have woken up and realized the value of you. Maybe you still have something left to give to your R. If you do, and he gives back consistently, it is amazing how much can grow in that fertile environment.