ok its time to post

[Dawn of Hope]

T, I decided to respond to this message separately from your latest one.

Hey Dawn,

It's nice to hear from you. I'm sorry about your father, that had to be extremely tough. I know you feel about the depression. I recently started taking an AD myself. My sitch got the best of me for a while. I suffered for a while (denial) with lack of sleep and anxiety.

You coming here and fighting for your M and helping others says a ton about who you really are. Be proud of that!!

T,
That's such a nice thing for you to say! Thank you!

Of course, I think I'm just a bossy boots who thinks that if everyone did things the way she said to, the world would be a much better place!)

I didn't sleep for two weeks after the bomb, and my sleep patterns are still screwed up a year later. I developed a tremor that I eventually figured out was from the lack of sleep, which was a great relief, as I had thought I might have to change careers, since a tremor is nearly fatal to a calligrapher.

It's hard to block the negativity that creeps in but I've found if I catch myself in the act and start to replace it with something positive it works. Seems a bit strange to do at first, but do it enough, just like Dbing it will become a habit that you won't even think about doing.

It's great to hear that your self esteem is better. You sound like a very caring person who is (like we all here are) learning about yourself and becoming a better.

Life is nothing but choices - who we act and react, how we treat others and ourselves, who we are, who we to be, how we view ourselves and others, the list is endless. Don't take this the wrong way. I know you have had it tough and I'm not trying to minimze that in any way. Life may never be the party that we hoped for but we can still choose to keep dancing.

Take care of you. Treat yourself to something special and feel good about it. You deserve it.

God Bless.
T

Okay, I'm falling asleep at the keyboard, and I'll have to check back with you later. I want to thank you for all of your kindness! Take care of yourself!

Peace,
Dawn