I have had a kind of "I don't give a sh$t" attitude
Been there, done that, especially when driving past the still open Krispy Kreme stores. Oh wait a min, you're talking about Rs.
Keep feeding the self via GAL work, JM. More of that will help keep the resentment monster at bay. Women seem cyclical, with some cycles taking even weeks to allow for greater synchrony/focus on you.
I sounded a bit like Sting there, didn't I. . . . "Roxanne! You don't have to turn on your red light!" ahem, ahem.