Plodding towards my Path With Heart

[SuperDad]

Hi FLTC,

Your W is absolutely delusional about "open marriage". Sounds more like casual dating to me.

Yep. I have been refering to her as my 42 year old, teen-aged daughter for some time now!

On other fronts, the D process is slowly moving along. W's L will file a counter-petition and I guess then we will see about mediation.

I am actually an emotional basket-case right now. Part of it is that in the midst of all of this, I
(1) have a career decision to make which is really stressing me out. Should be a good thing as it is a great opportunity, but I'm not sure I want to take on the responsibility in the midst of the D process!

(2) broke off a potentially great thing with a woman I had seen a few times. Even though it clearly was awful timing (she lives out-of-state), I let the fantasy of it carry me away a bit. I have met so many woman this past year and she is the only one who I have really been interested in. We are such a great match, but there is no way to take it any further for the time being. She actually was feeling guilty because I am still M'ed which led to her backing away. Ironic, because when I told W that I was going to proceed with D, this was one of the reasons, that is that no woman who I am interested in will want to be with me while I am married to someone else...unlike her current choice!

(3) am really sleep deprived from going out of town for the weekend and then busting my chops for the past 2 days trying to catch up!

On the positive side, I had a great time over the weekend...cycled up an incredible mountain road, did some hiking, went to an awesome NHL game, did Hot Yoga for the first time, and even had some time to drink a few beers and eat some great food.

We are now also at 12 days before the big race and I need to spend some QT with my bike to get ready. Training is going great, just have to focus on strategy a bit to make sure I don't cramp up this time!

Oh yeah and Halloween is just around the corner too...not sure exactly when we will carve pumpkins, maybe on Thursday before soccer practice?

I guess when I read back over this, I feel better than I should!

Take care, SD