Today I was thinking about my situation in preparation for my counseling session and I realized that right now I am not sure what I want. I am feeling better, feeling like I can manage, but not happy about it. Accepting, like I said before. Then when I got to counseling I still got teary. I think my brain is major confused. Perhaps it is a good thing I get no positive vibes from H. He seems so defensive all the time. I am pretty much just going to back off, I only call him when it is something about the kids anyway so I don't know what he has to complain about.
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
