She has been deceitful on so many levels. I hope you meet someone else before she makes up her mind.
Yes, I have hung on for nine months at great personal cost and have taken a whole lot of gaslighting and other psychological abuse. I have also had to leave two jobs because I was completely unable to concentrate. I have no idea where I found the strength from but assume it was because I was so badly in need of personal change myself that I initially felt I was getting what I deserved. I was far from perfect as a husband.
2008 will be a 13th floor in my life history - as far as I am concerned it won't exist, but the bitter lessons will and I will use them to make the rest of my life and any future relationships wonderful.
I want to find a wonderful, normal, well-adjusted woman with whom I am thrilled about sharing my life. I am 32 and I know full well that there are many lovely girls out there.
I just want this decision to be over and for the dust to settle.
best
GH31
Me: 46 W: 46 T: 23 M: 20 DS12 DD11 DS5
W left: 01/28/08 Discovered OM: 02/26/08 W back for 9 days: 04/08 W returned 05/21/08 EA/PA - 01/08-07/09 W's MLC 2008-2014 (realised this much later)
