Actually I have an appointment scheduled for tomorrow, 5 PM my time, with Jody. I'm glad I waited this long, as so much has happened, and I really want her advice now on how to approach the next R talks and the living sitch etc.
You're right about the physical affection, although there was one, honestly magical, moment in the hotel in Galway where I hugged him and he put his head on my shoulder. It felt so genuine, but I actually got a little nervous and pulled away.
I agree about keeping conversation to a minimum over the next few days. I am trying not to get nervous about how he will be when he comes back. Anyway since H is on this business trip, he may not even be online for the next couple of days. I sent him an email this evening letting him know I paid some online toll that he asked me to pay this morning, but won't send any non-urgent texts/emails for the next few days.
Small update--while I was in the middle of posting this I had the feeling I needed to check my phone (had left it downstairs). I missed a call from H by 2 minutes. He was transferring flights in Germany. So, I called him back, and he had just called to ask about whether this outlet store that we were planning on going to this weekend(meaning he remembers and is committed to the plans we made)had laptop bags because he saw some nice ones in the Frankfurt airport. Then we talked about his current laptop bag and how the zipper is broken and I said I would take it to get repaired tomorrow since I needed to get my jeans altered anyway. So it wasn't a super friendly, chatty conversation. He said "OK talk to you later, need to go," at the end, but really he did not need to call me at all about this. It felt pretty normal, or would have if I could have ended with "ILY". This is a horrendous night of traveling for him where he gets to Egypt at 340 AM local time, so even under non-weird R circumstances he would have likely been a bit short with me.
Feeling pretty pleased that he called like that actually. I can count on one hand the number of times he's called over the past few months...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
