Nothing To Fear!! God is in Control.

[kissak]

ok, just when I think things are going good, my H starts with his stuff again.

I thought things were ok with me and him. There was no expectations, nothing. We just talk like friends, we are kind to one another. He even called me last night to talk about some things that were bothering him. That led off to a conversation about the OW and she was treating him like crap. (Like I care)and how all those he thought were his friends, havent been there for him. I was really just being a good listener. I know my H is the kind of person who has to talk things through to understand them....So I let him talk. Oh, he is now where near ready for anything....he is definitely in that crisis mode. Anyway, he calls me this morning to talk briefly. Then the texts start....he wants to know "what are we". I know that means, he wants to know what is our relationship. I told him, we are married but separated. Anyway the whole day was about how he wants to be ready to come home for the right reasons and that he is afraid and scared and doesnt want to hurt my feelings, he said that he hasnt done anything to try to get me to consider him coming back yet. He said he knows I will be upset if he goes out with someone else, he is only looking for friends.

Anyway, long story short....He is acting as if I have asked something of him...I havent done anything. I have been acting like nothing has really changed. We are separated and I am doing what I want and he is doing what he wants. But he is acting like i Have asked him to come home or to be a hermit crab until his feelings come back.

HE is just confusing me today. Trying not to think to much about it. I do know that he doesnt want me to go back out with that guy. But he says he cant stop me and does want me to go out and have a good time.

He is so confusing....I know I sound like this is bothering me, but i am really fine. Just reporting his actions today. Not even going to try and figure them out. Doesnt matter. I know I dont need to worry about his confusion. But I hate not to be a friend and listen to him.

My H is just weird. I dont think people truly understand him. Sometimes I dont and I know he doesnt!!!

Anyway, off to have a quiet evening alone~~