Thanks lost. I really am starting to get ahold of "being ok" no matter what. Sometimes I loose it and then pick it up again. But so far so good I feel good most of the time, but I still think about my sitch and W much of the day.
W called to discuss some things today and it went ok or better than ok I guess. We settled that we would do Halloween together on Fri and take the kids to a party on Sat, again together.
During part of the conversation I told her that I wasn't giving up. That I still thought we have a good chance to reconcile but that I was going to give up any of the awkwardness and bad feelings and just live, have fun and enjoy life.
Lately my good attitude has led me to push some of her boundaries. Admittedly some of them probably a bit too far. I'm going to be more careful and keep myself and my emotions in check.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
