Aloha everyone! It's been so long since I've posted, just thought I'd give everyone an update. Things have been going well here. H is in school on Monday and Friday nights. I've been very busy with the kids. We have both been tired, and stressed but things are good. I feel like we need to spend some time together, but H and I both agree that there aren't any existing problems. H rates our marriage as a 9 out of 10. He says nothing is perfect, and I agree. He has said that during the time that he dropped the bomb, he felt our marriage wasn't even "on the charts". So, it makes me feel good that he feels that things are so great. I like our R now, and am very comfortable and secure in it. It's been such a long time since I've said that!
An interesting development: I've been having some pain/cramps "down there" and haven't had my period in about two months. I was on the pill to regulate my periods since I have PCOS. Anyway, I went to the doctor on Tuesday because of my symtoms. My mother died of breast cancer at the age of 48 (I was 20) and my aunts on my mother's side all had uterine cancer (luckily, they are doing well). So, when I told him my symptoms (bloated feeling, gas, cramps, nausea) he asked if I could be pregnant. I said "not a chance, H had a vasectomy last year". He said "well, stranger things have happened". UGH. I can't have another baby because my uterus was cut open every which way to get my last baby out, and I was told I'd probably never carry another baby to term, plus my other health issues (asthma). Anyway, it never even occured to me that I could be pregnant. Hopefully, I'm not. But, if I'm not, it makes me wonder what the heck is wrong with me!?! I am so worried about cancer. I requested the CA 125 test (I think that's what it's called) to detect uterine/ovarian cancer. The doc. said he wanted to start with an ultrasound, so I have to schedule that. I am waiting to hear my blood test results (re. pregnancy). The ultrasound will not be transviginal, but I am pushing more for that because it is better for detecting that type of cancer. I also have so much extra skin on my abdomin from the weight loss and scar tissue from 2 c-sections that viewing will be hard. Anyway, I will let you all know if there is a new baby on the way (months of bedrest?? hmmm), or if there is something else to be concerned about, or, maybe I just have gas LOL!!
Hope you are all doing well! I will check in on some of you when I get a chance!
