2 steps forward, 3 back

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H had a b-day party for D8. He got her a camera, I had already gotten her one. So we were texting back and forth and I told him what I got S12 for xmas and mentioned the camera. Of course he didn’t remember me telling him. Told me once he doesn’t listen to me anyway. So we talked and he told me what he got. I said good, I couldn’t afford that and I think he took it as me saying he had $ so he told me several people went in on it. He says I should give her the camera anyway. Then he texted that he doesn’t want to be at war with me. I reminded him that I never wanted a war, and that for over 3 yrs I have said that I don’t want to be enemies. I said I was not vindictive. I said I care and left it at that. He told me when I picked up the kids that he was glad the kids like the guy I am hanging out with and that his GF is good with kids. He said he knew I was uncomfortable talking about it. I just listened and said nothing. He again said we were in limbo and it would be cool if we could settle things quickly, then said I know you said you were working on it. It was an ok conversation.

I spent the weekend moving my tv room into my garage since his stuff is finally out. Then I am going to paint that empty room and make it S12’s bedroom. I will paint his old bedroom and rent it out for some badly needed income to stay afloat. S12 was flipping out that he doesn’t want a stranger here. I tried to explain it and reason but it didn’t work so I am basically keeping him in the dark now. I can’t take the stress of it all, I don’t want to do it either but I will do what I have to to keep my house.