I'm at the computer rather than in my bed.. not a good thing.
I'm feeling strange... not so good either..
Feeling unsettled..
While at the swim thingie, a mom whose been divorced was telling me about the reality of divorce. She was the one who wanted it, says she should have gotten out sooner. She's very happy not to have her former spouse as her partner.
When she spoke of my predicament all my positive thoughts started sliding away. One of my worst fears is not having financial security. This plunge in the stock market is erasing most of our joint assets. The housing market in the dumps. This house is way too big for my daughter and I.. but anything I can/could potentially afford is in really bad shape.
All my doubts started surfacing again.. where will we live, what can I afford, how big or little a place do I get, really small so I can save for the future.
If you want to divorce your spouse.. dang.. I wish he would have brought me up to speed. It's so shocking for it just to happen.
I don't know if 'letting it out' is good.. because I certainly feel like what a bear does in the woods.
